In the past four months I have been travelling around. I've great time, I learned a lot which no book can teach, and my mentally growth is priceless treasure. I take travelling as a learning trip (not going to somewhere 5days4nights snap 1k photos to show off on FB, that is not even called travelling that is called PHOTOSNAPPING not even photoshooting). Of course, many people may disagree with my attitude, they think I should work to build up career profile (I think they are jealous). No matter what, I am tired and finally back to Malaysia now, taking a two months good rest living as a normal human being. As for summary, since last November I flew from KL to Seoul to Busan to Hongkong to Sydney to Hobart to Sydney to Hongkong to Busan to Fukuoka to Nagasaki to Busan to Bangkok to KL(arrived two days ago.) I left Malaysia for 4 months, it is the longest journey I had. My previous record was only 2 months.
I wished I was someone without a lot of kangtao because I am getting tired of wandering. I often ask myself what do I really want. At the end I just found out that I have been doing all things to escape from real life. But well, what is real life? How do we define it? Who could judge it right or wrong? And why should I listen to "these people"? I never agree that a real life is sitting in the office making hard money, fishing rich man get a grand wedding making people jealous, living in a big house, giving birth baby boys to make the world happy, getting old but trying hard to look young and wrinkle free, yamcha with colleagues laughing at dry jokes (of course all these points above sounds pretty tempting, I am glad if you having them now I am not jealous k). This is the typical human life which people adore. You try so hard to make the whole world happy so that you are happy. Since when we practise prioritising "these people"'s happiness? Living under people's shadow trying hard to live up people's expectation.
It is very hard not to live up to other's expectation and not to disappoint other people. In Uni you study a course you don't even interested/like just because you do not want to disappoint your parents, you do a job you don't like just because the job title sounds good so people will look high at you, you are poor but you buying luxurious thing because you like to compare with your friends, you care others looking at you more than yourself, don't you? don't you? I am telling you now that you CAN live the life you wanted, happily, and ignore what other think or view of you. This is a wisdom. If you never learn, you will get trapped forever, trapped in the life people tells you what you should be. You will lost yourself forever, and you will regret forever.
Year 2012, I am going out there to get myself, I am going in there to win myself. And you, please please please get a life too. Don't waste so much time in Facebook please, people out there is not important to you at all. Draft your life and live happily, don't live for people's expectation, live for YOUR expectation. I will settle down when I want, I will find a job again when I am ready, and I will not do something just to make you happy when I am unhappy. Ta!